Sure. I killed the light and got into bed and just lay there for a long time, and then I gave up and got up and read the paper again. The thought came to me that a couple of drinks would take the edge off and let me sleep. I couldnโ€™t banish the thought but I could make myself stay where I was, and when four oโ€™clock came I told myself to forget it because the bars were closed now. There was an after-hours on Eleventh Avenue but I conveniently forgot about it.


I turned off the light and got in bed again and thought about the dead hooker and the housing cop and the woman whoโ€™d been run over by the subway train, and I wondered why anyone would think it a good idea to stay sober in this city, and I held onto that thought and fell asleep with it.




โ€˜์–ด๋ จํ•˜์‹ค๊นŒ.โ€™ ๋ถˆ์„ ๋„๊ณ  ์ž ์ž๋ฆฌ์— ๋“ค์–ด ํ•œ์ฐธ์„ ๋ˆ„์›Œ ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ฐ€, ์ž ์ž๋Š” ๊ฑธ ํฌ๊ธฐํ•˜๊ณ  ์ผ์–ด๋‚˜ ๋‹ค์‹œ ์‹ ๋ฌธ์„ ์ฝ์—ˆ๋‹ค. ์ˆ ์„ ๋ช‡ ์ž” ๋งˆ์‹œ๋ฉด ์ง„์ •์ด ๋ผ์„œ ์ž ์ด ๋“ค ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™๋‹ค๋Š” ์ƒ๊ฐ์ด ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ž๋‹ค. ์ด ์ƒ๊ฐ์ด ๊ณ„์† ๋จธ๋ฆฟ์†์„ ๋งด๋Œ์•˜์ง€๋งŒ, ๋ฐฉ ์•ˆ์—์„œ ๋ฒ„ํ‹ฐ๋ฉด์„œ ์ƒˆ๋ฒฝ 4์‹œ๊ฐ€ ๋์„ ๋•Œ๋Š” ์ด์ œ ์„ ์ˆ ์ง‘๋„ ๋‹ค ๋ฌธ์„ ๋‹ซ์•˜์œผ๋‹ˆ ํฌ๊ธฐํ•˜๋ผ๊ณ  ํ˜ผ์žฃ๋ง์„ ๋˜๋‡Œ์—ˆ๋‹ค. 11๋ฒˆ๊ฐ€์—๋Š” ์˜์—… ์ค‘์ธ ๋ฌดํ—ˆ๊ฐ€ ์ˆ ์ง‘์ด ํ•œ ๊ตฐ๋ฐ ์žˆ์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ, ์šฉ์ผ€๋„ ๊ทธ ์‚ฌ์‹ค์„ ๊นœ๋นกํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค.


๋ถˆ์„ ๋„๊ณ  ๋‹ค์‹œ ์นจ๋Œ€์— ๋ˆ„์›Œ ์ฃฝ์€ ์ฐฝ๋…€, ๊ณต๊ณต์ฃผํƒ ๊ฒฝ์ฐฐ๊ด€, ์ „์ฒ ์— ๊น”๋ ธ๋˜ ์—ฌ์ž์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ๋‹ค. ์–ด์งธ์„œ ์ด๋Ÿฐ ๋„์‹œ์—์„œ ๋งจ์ •์‹ ์œผ๋กœ ์ง€๋‚ด๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ์ข‹๋‹ค๊ณ  ์—ฌ๊ธฐ๋Š” ๊ฑด์ง€ ๊ถ๊ธˆํ•ด์กŒ๋‹ค. ์ด ์ƒ๊ฐ์— ์‚ฌ๋กœ์žกํžŒ ์ฑ„ ์ž ์ด ๋“ค์—ˆ๋‹ค.


- ์ฃฝ์Œ์— ์ด๋ฅด๋Š” 8๋ฐฑ๋งŒ ๊ฐ€์ง€ ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•, ๋กœ๋ Œ์Šค ๋ธ”๋ก




p.s

Sure๋ฅผ ๋„๋Œ€์ฒด ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ์ซ€์ซ„ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ์˜ฎ๊ธธ๊นŒ ๊ณ ๋ฏผํ•˜๋‹ค๊ฐ€ <์•„๋ฌด๋ ด>์„ ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ฆฌ๊ณ ,

์—ญ์‹œ ํ˜•์€ ์†Œ์งˆ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฑฐ ์•„๋‹๊นŒ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ž๋ป‘ ๋ชจ๋“œ ์Šฌ์Šฌ ๋“ค๊ฐ”๋Š”๋ฐ,

๊ธฐ์กด ์ถœ๊ฐ„์„œ ์ฐพ์•„ ๋ณด๋‹ˆ๊นŒ, ๋˜‘๊ฐ™์ด <์•„๋ฌด๋ ด>์œผ๋กœ ์˜ฎ๊ฒจ ๋†“์€๊ธฐ๋ž”ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹

๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ๋‹ค์‹œ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด๋‚ธ ๋‹จ์–ด๊ฐ€ <์–ด๋ จํ•˜์‹ค๊นŒ>์ธ๋ฐ, <์•„๋ฌด๋ ด>๋ณด๋‹ค๋Š” ์•„๋ฌด๋ž˜๋„ ๋ง๋นจ์ด ์ชผ๊นŒ ๋”ธ๋ฆฌ์ ดใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹



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