※주의※ 이 이야기는 100% 논픽션입니다

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안녕하세요. 카연갤 여러분들, 처음으로 쓴 글이지만 피드백 많이 받겠습니다!!

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그럼 시작하겠습니다!!

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어느날 친구가 자살했다

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저번 학기 초였다

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"야, 너 그거 들었어?"

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당시에 나는 SNS를 거의 안하다시피했고, 소식을 못들은것은 당연했다

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"A..자살했잖아...몰랐어?"

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점심시간이나 쉬는시간에도 애들이 말하는 주제는 당연히 'A의 죽음'이었다

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그중에는 "꽁밥 개이득 ㅋㅋ"이러는 애들도 있고, "이유가 뭔데?"이러는 애들도있었다.

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내친구 A는 항상 밝고 친구들과도 잘 지내는 애인데

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그런애가 자살을하다니, 믿겨지지가 않았다

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"자살한거가지고 ㅈㄴ 비웃네..역겹다..진짜"
나는 다른애들과 다르지않게 이런생각을 했다

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역 겹 다.

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그때 당시에는 '어우...진짜 저런생각이 나오냐?' 하고 생각을했는데 나도 별반 다른게 없었다.

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하지만 나는 그런애들과눈 다르다고 자위질을하는 내가 제일 역겹다고 생각했었다.

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고민이 있을때마다 는 잘들어줬었는데, 먼저 나서서 해주었는데, 항상 밝았었는데, 이런 생각들이 늘 들었다

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마지막에 좀더 같이 놀러다닐걸,
좀더 좋은곳 갈걸,
고민있냐고 물어볼걸,

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지금 후회해봤자 뭐 되겠나...

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처음하는거라서 많이미숙합니다. 죄송합니다. 노력하겠습니다.

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