Everything what i've done around here is decent.
You should know that.
Unless you see it, you never reach the level of mine.

I'll keep saying these for you:)

Don't worry you can do this.

All you have to do is just do as you're told and be more like me.

Never achieving fluent is not from your negativity but i don't even think it didn't affect that.

So from now on, keep in your mine not to pick up the keyboard and never come back to here again.

That's all i can give you as advise

Take it or not is your choice.
Treat this as priority is also your choice.
But regardless if you do or not.
I hope you well.