I owe too many people a debt of gratitude.
Too many people have suffered because of me.
And I cannot imagine the suffering they will
go through in the future.
The rest of my life would only be a burden for others.
My health is so bad that I can't do anything.
I can't even read a book or write anything.

Don't be too sad.
Isn't life and death a piece of nature?
Don't be sorry.
Don't blame anyone.
It's all fate.


Cremate my body
and set a small gravestone near my home. 
It's what I have thought about for a long time.


dawn of May 23, 2009